Why is it so emotional to be a Mommy???

I never would have imagined how emotional I would still be even after having Callie. I could not sleep well last night because I kept thinking that just 5 short months ago I was sitting up anticipating the next morning and going to have my daughter. I remember how many emotions I felt. It is so amazing how emotional I feel on the 7th of each month when Callie gets another month older. Of course I would not want the alternative to happen and her not grow older. Its just unbelievable that she is already 5 months old.

Back when I was pregnant I saw an add in a baby magazine that was for a 1/2 birthday. At that point I knew I wanted to do it for Cal. What you do is make a little birthday cake and decorate it and put 1/2 on the top for their 6 month birthday. Of course Cal will not get to enjoy the cake, but she will get a special prize that day and it will make for a great photo opportunity. I remember telling Josh and Mom about it and how cute they thought the idea was. I thought at that time I had so long to go until it would be time for her little party. Now I can not imagine that its only a month away.

I think that motherhood is the most rewarding job I have ever had. It is so wonderful to look at my daughter and know that if it were not for me she would not be here.

Speaking of the word daughter. It still sometimes hits me that OMG I have a daughter!!! Last Thursday I had to reschedule my doctors appt due to some issues(more about that later). When the lady gave me the date for a reschedule I remembered that Callie has to go to the Nutritionist that day. So I told the lady at my clinic I could not do it that day because my daughter had her own appt that day. I dont know what about saying "my daughter" hit me like that, but it sure did!!! Some times I wonder how long will it take to sink in that I am a Mommy.