The toughest year so far

I can not get it through my head that today is one year already. Between the mixes of emotions of having a newborn during the time with Daddy in the hospital and then losing him has been so overwhelming. I am glad that I had my family to go through this with and grow stronger together. Callie of course was such a blessing added to my life during this time.

I truly thank God for the fact that Daddy did not suffer like he could have if the fight drug on like so many Cancer fights do.

I miss you so much Daddy and love you. I think of you each day.

A new year, a new life

The diet has started. I actually did not do it as a resolution though and didn't even think about that at the time.
I started it on Monday and have lost 5 lbs already. Basically I wanted to do it for my health and to hopefully help build my Back up.

I am counting Calories more than anything and it is WONDERFUL how many good things there are that you can actually eat these days. I try to eat fruits and veggies with every meal.

My blog is going to turn into my weight loss journal because I dont think anyone actually reads it:) So it will be my place to document my progress.

I am eating healthy but also using the DVDs "Walk away the pounds". I had done them in the past and loved them. I do the 3 mile challenge one so far and have done it everyday so far. I have a 4 mile one to start working up to. I cant wait until the weather is nice enough to stroll with Callie outside.

I really plan to stick to this and try as hard as I can. I already feel better and this way Callie will have more options of food to try. I am actually eating veggies, including Broccoli!!! Big step for me:)

So far so good. I am also praying very hard each day for God to give me the strength I need to accomplish my goal. I do not have a "set" # I want to be. I just want to finally feel good about myself and be healthier.

I am trying to cook fresh as much as possible, but I do have a large variety of things other than all fresh too. These few foods make it easier....( I am not allowing myself to have a lot of the processed foods like this Pizza bc of my BP problems, but hey one every couple of weeks wont hurt)

Note to self: I swear I can never get this site to space correctly. It always messes up!!!

Beautiful

My favorite picture from the pasture on Christmas Eve..

Happy New Year

So after almost 9 years together hubby and I decided to go out for the new year. We headed to Corky's for dinner and then to several places to shop. Lowes being one of them. We have a weakness for that place for some reason. After a great night we headed home to spend the rest of the night with Mom and Callie and watch the ball fall.

I hope 2009 turns out to be a good year for health and happiness for our entire family.

A wonderful day

Today I had a great time with my family. We just stayed home and spent time together except for a quick trip to the local park with a duck pond. Callie was in such a good mood and we took her outside to let her explore for the first time. Since she is taking steps it was great because I just gave in and let her go. She loved the dirt, leaves, and sticks. My daughter all the way! She had such a blast. It stinks though that it is starting to get cold right when she will be up and mobile. These were some of my fav pics from today.

Wondeful

That's about all I can say.


Two years ago tonight I sat in my brother's driveway still recovering from major surgery. I remember sitting there watching all of the kids come up and down trick or treating. I was thinking I will never have a little one of my own to do this with.



And now look.....

I am so blessed!

Once a student, now a teacher

Daddy taught me many of the things I know. How to drive, how to use a lawnmower, how to use a gun, how to pay bills, and so many other things.

Now that Daddy is gone it seems that the roles are reversed. I am teaching Mom so many things. Still cant get her on the riding lawnmower though:) I have helped her learn about paying bills, how to use automated phone systems (which have brought her to tears bc they are such a pain in the butt), in the process of teaching her to pump gas using the "new technological gas pumps." And the list goes on and on.

You never think about the things that someone else must learn to do until the person they depended on is gone. I am just glad that God gives me the ability to be there for her and the patience to be her teacher.

Sometimes I just wish life were "normal" again. But hey what is normal anymore?

Its like Mom says though sometimes you just need someone to listen and a hug to say its okay.