Totally empty

That is the way I feel right now. Callie is at Mom's for the first time tonight without me. We have not been apart at night since she arrived 8 1/2 months ago. I knew it would be hard, but I didnt know how much it would open my eyes.

I guess with what happened in our family this week with Joey losing his baby really made me stop and thank God for giving Josh and I a healthy baby girl.

Our house is way too quiet and calm tonight for me. I would rather see toys all over the place, hear little goos, coos, and giggles. Go into her room and her lamp be on awaiting her to go to "night night". Tonight with our house seeming so EMPTY it has made me so much more thankful for the fact that I have a precious daughter that I can hold, rock, play with, and love on at any single minute. I could not imagine my life without my Cal Nae. I hope that I will always make the right choices, and be the best Mommy to her that I can be. I hope that in her future she and I will be as close and Mom and I are.

If I never succeed at anything else in life I hope that I succeed in Callie's eyes as being a good Mother.

So very true...

Excuse This House

Author: Unknown

Some houses try to hide the fact
That children shelter there,
Ours boasts it quite openly,
The signs are everywhere.
For smears are on the windows,
Little smudges are on the doors.
I should apologize, I guess,
For toys strew on the floor.
But I sat down with my child
And we played and laughed and read.
And if the doorbell doesn’t shine,
Her eyes will shine instead.
For when at times I’m forced to choose
The one job or the other,
I’d like to cook and clean and scrub,
But first I’ll be a mother.